Some people seem to think that reunion fixes everything and resolves adoption loss issues. By now people are probably extremely tired of hearing me say so, but for me reunion has given me some resolution nothing else could have. I love getting to know my son. However, making up for lost time is impossible and reunion does not wipe out the past.

A photo of Jenna and her beautiful Munchkin making cookies some time back was one of those bittersweet moments I often have when I see such photos. I am so pleased that Jenna and her daughter have moments like that together. At the same time, I am wistful when I see their photos together.

I can handle seeing moms and daughters together though. It is photos of Moms and toddler boys with blonde hair that destroy me sometimes. My son's other mother (his adoptive mom) has sent me a few photos of my son when he was small. Even he agrees, he was a very cute little boy!

Cookie baking was one activity that we would have done had I raised him. A few years ago, I thought about that fact with some sadness. Then, I decided that although we may never bake cookies together, I could send him mom-made cookies. It was a creative way to make myself feel better. The first time I overnighted cookies to him, he didn't say too much.

Eventually, I mentioned that I didn't even know if he liked cookies. He assured me that as a matter of fact, he has a cookie or two nearly every afternoon. Since then I have sent cookies to him several times. I asked what his favorites were, so now I know. Now, he does mention it when I sent cookies. He even hints once in awhile that it is time for more.

The last time I mentioned I was thinking it was time for more cookies; my son sounded enthused. We can't make up for lost time -that doesn't work. I can let him know now though that I love him and think of him often. Baking and overnighting cookies to him is one way to show him how I feel.