This natural mother feels that although her baby was not conceived in love the baby was carried in love and it was in love that she hid her pregnancy so that she could give him life. She loved this baby and she knew that her baby was going to a couple who loved him as much as she did, a couple who could provide form her baby what she could not.

This natural mother cried daily and wanted so badly to change her mind and take her baby back but she knew in her heart of hearts that being that young she could not provide for him. She didn’t have a job or an education. The natural mother ended up getting kicked out of her home by her mother when she returned from the hospital but she knew her baby was safe.

When her son turned 19 she started looking for him. She went to Ameridex and got a list of males born on the day she gave birth and she went through the list and saw the attorneys name. The natural mother thought at first that the adoptive couple was so happy they gave him her name as a sign of respect. She then went to the recorder site for the state and found the last name and discovered that her son was adopted by the attorney who handled the adoption and that her husband was the judge who presided over the case.

This natural mother was furious and understandably felt violated all over again. However, with a lot of though, time, letting go of the anger that she realized that this couple must have loved him so much and wanted him so badly as to have done such an unethical thing. They put their careers on the line for him. The natural mother had found him, sent him a letter and he immediately responded with pictures and was very happy his natural mother had found him.